lelaki mane?

pertanyaan itu sangat jeneral...
pertanyaan itu kepada diri sendiri aku tujukan,
aku tidak layak dipunyai mana2 lelaki.

tingkahku kasar,
rupaku juga kurang menyenangkan,
gerak gayaku langsung tidak melambangkan kewanitaan,
aku juga punya sejarah yg menyedihkan..

bersama denganku umpama bersama dengan seorang lelaki kecil yg hanya layak dibuat kawan.
telah beberapa kali percubaan ini gagal,
aku tidak kecewa, cuma telah malas dan tidak mahu berfikir apa2.

biarlah aku mcm ni je, mungkin hidup aku mmg sesuai cani smpai bebile...

=)

question(s) (monologue)

i need you, but who are you?
i am doing my job, but what is my job?
u can see me smile, but am i smiling?
i got a lot of friends, but am i a good friend?

it took me 4ever to feel this miserable again, i dun like it but i want it. y? am i stupid or sumting?

no, i just want it.. so my life wouldn't be that boring. n hope it would last longer this time...

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i'm sick of gossiping, talking shits, make fun of unnecessary things, saying bad things about others, yadayadayadayada.....~

i'm tired being the observer, i had enuf observing things, i can't read peoples' mind, i dunno how people feels about everything, so i'm gonna stop judging. i'm not a God who knows every ones agenda, so i'm not gonna pretend that i know everything...

i dun really care about ur presence, all u can think about is controlling other peoples' mind, just remember, what goes around comes around..... today u're at the top, who knows tomorrow how hard u're gonna fall...

stop it, b4 its too late.... stop bugging other peoples' life, u mean nothing to them...